あざとい系女子。

 
こんにちは!
お喜楽道です^^
 
 
 
さ〜て、
 
11月が始まりましたよっと。
 
 
 
10月は、
 
いかがお過ごしでしたか〜〜??
 
 
 
私は、
 
これから10月の振り返りをする予定です。
 
 
 
 
10月の下旬は、
 
かな〜〜り、
 
色々なことがありました。
 
 
 
いや、現実世界では、
 
全く変わってませんけど、
 
 
私の内面の変化は
 
お風呂でのアウトプット三昧によって、
 
めっちゃくちゃ著しいですww
 
 
 
外の世界は、
 
私が、過去に思考したものの結果なので、
 
今は、現実が変わってなくても、
 
内面が変わったので、
 
これから加速度的に現実も変わってくると思ってます笑
 
 
 
 
一例を挙げるなら、、、
 
 
最近、
 
「あざとい系女子」というワードが
 
盛んに目に入ってきてたんですよね。
 
 
 
で、当初は、
 
私が、「あざとい系女子」を好きなんだと思ってました。
 
 
 
まぁ、男性からすると、
 
あざといとわかってながらも
 
可愛いって思いますもんねww
 
 
 
 
でも、
 
自分と向き合って、
 
アウトプットをしてたら
 
ちょっとというか、
 
だいぶ違うかもしれないってことに気づきました。
 
 
 
「あざとい系女子」が可愛いということではなく、
 
私自身が、「あざとい系女子」に憧れてたのでは??と。
 
 
 
(女装癖があるとかそういうことじゃありませんw)
 
 
 
私にとって、
 
あざとい系女子になりたい
 
=もっと甘えたい
 
 
というものが出てきました。
 
 
 
思えば、
 
私は、甘えるってことをしてこなかったなぁと。
 
 
 
いつでも、
 
1人で気を張って戦ってた気がします。
 
 
 
どこか心の奥底で、
 
甘えは許されない。
 
 
 
甘えるなんて恥だ。
 
 
 
もっと言えば、
 
 
私が、みんなを守ってあげるからね。
 
 
だから、
 
みんな私についてきな。
 
 
よ〜し、いい子だね〜〜
 
 
っていうリーダーというか、
 
甘えてきなさい側の人間だったなと。
 
 
 
でも、
 
少しくらいは甘えたい。
 
 
そんな気持ちを押し殺して、
 
1人で戦ってた。
 
 
 
そんな感覚になったんです。
 
 
 
本当の意味で、
 
甘えるという経験をしてこなかった。
 
 
 
そもそも、
 
甘えられる存在がいなかった。
 
 
 
会社はおろか、
 
家庭でも
 
周りの数少ない同年代の友人も
 
自分の気持ちをわかってくれない。
 
 
 
だから、
 
心の底から
 
自分の弱さを見せられる存在がいないと思って、
 
 
この人になら、
 
安心して甘えられる
 
 
そういう存在を無意識に欲してたんだろうなと。
 
 
 
だからこそ、
 
今、私は、無意識のうちに
 
年上の女性を求めているのかもしれません。
 
 
 
最近、
 
 
年上の女性の包容力を感じたいお年頃のようでw
 
 
 
 
まぁ、思えば、
 
本当になんとなくですけど、
 
昔から年上の女性がいいなぁ
 
って思ってました。
 
 
 
天海祐希さんや真矢みきさん、
 
麻木久仁子さんや宮崎美子さん、
 
 
なぜか惹かれてました。
 
 
 
力強くて、芯のある女性に惹かれてたのかな笑
 
 
 
かといって、
 
甘えっぱなしなわけじゃなくて、
 
 
お互いに自立してて、成長し合える
 
甘えたり、甘えられたりが自然にできる
 
 
そういう存在を求めてたんだろうなって。
 
 
 
年上の女性が、
 
疲れてるのを癒すみたいなの最高な気がしてますww
 
 
 
まぁ、
 
この一連のアウトプットで、
 
私は、リードするタイプの人間を演じてただけで
 
実際は、リードされたい側なんだなってのにも気づきましたw
 
 
 
自分から話すよりも聞き役の方が楽だし。
 
 
 
かっこいいって言われるより、
 
かわいいって言われる方が、
 
昔からなんとなく嬉しかったのは、
 
無意識に、かわいがられたい現れだったのかも笑
 
 
 
それも、
 
同年代や年下からじゃなく、
 
2歳以上離れてる人から言われると
 
すごく嬉しかったんですよね。
 
 
 
年下や同年代から言われると
 
男としての魅力がないみたいに受け取ってました。
 
 
 
だから、
 
お姉さんタイプの人じゃないと
 
自分が心地よくないんだろうなと。
 
 
 
 
そろそろ、
 
1人で戦って、お世話をして、
 
休まずに飛び回るのに疲れたようです。
 
安心して羽を休められる場所を求めてるのかもしれません。
 
 
 
私は、母性があるね〜〜
 
安心感があるね〜〜
 
って結構言われます。
 
 
だから、
 
私っていう言葉を使うのかも。
 
 
 
そんな私だからこそ、
 
男勝りなかかあ天下がいいのかもしれないなぁ。
 
 
それが、
 
私が、一番楽なんですよねww
 
 
 
 
そんなことにちょっとでも気づくと
 
現実は少しずつ変わっていくわけです。
 
 
 
今まで私は、
 
過去の少ない恋愛経験ですけど、
 
なぜだか年下の女性から好かれる存在でした。
 
 
元彼女と5月に別れてから
 
ここ数ヶ月で新たに知り合った
 
数名の年下の女性と年上の女性に誘われて、
 
飲みやご飯に行ったりもしました。
 
 
 
でも、
 
年齢問わず、
 
可愛らしい、守ってあげたくなるような女性ばかりでした。
 
 
 
 
私自身が、
 
ようやく潜在意識で思っていることに気づいたからこそ、
 
 
今後は、
 
年上で、私が心の底から甘えられる女性が
 
現れるんだろうなと思ってます。
 
 
 
まだ見えないけど、
 
内面の常識が変わると
 
ちょっとずつこうやって、
 
現実は変わって行くのです笑
 
 
 
というわけで、
 
お喜楽道の人生ストーリー
 
「本当の意味での恋愛編」のはじまりはじまり〜〜〜
 
ってことなのかな?笑
 
 
 
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